Beauty Is Not Between A Size 0 And A Size 8.

 I've had a but of a revelation, In terms of my own personal development:
 Last week I found myself in a situation, surrounded by others in the industry, those whom I am well acquainted. Now these girls are obsessed by 'prettiness' to almost an extreme. They are not actors, but singers, and they are in a line of work where looks almost concur all. It is not necessarily their fault, they have been working for someone who is making them a product, the girls are being told to look good at all times and are being put on strict diets. 
I was made to feel that I had no self worth by them. The worst thing about this - is that I don't even think the girls even knew they were doing it. 

Body image and being 'beautiful' is a huge insecurity to all girls. Especially performers that are judged by their looks every audition they go to. But what happens in ten years time when these girls have lost their looks? There is so much more to life than asymmetry and large assets. 

 I was talking to my friend Missy again about everything that had gone on and how awful they had made me feel, our conversation eventually changed course and we started to talk about when we are listening to our iPods and want to sing out loud in a public place. She said, from everything she has seen in New York, when people just break into dance and just start to jam as they are working down the street, she said, "Just go for it! Who cares what other people think!" 

This made me think about Strasberg. He has an exercise called, private moment. This is where you simply do the things you would if you were at home alone..in front of others. So I did a little experiment. I decided to walk for about an hour around London, singing aloud. At first, I found it very difficult, singing quietly and stopping if I thought anyone was looking at me, or came too close. Eventually I pushed myself to just do it! And although I did have a few people looking, it wasn't half as bad as I had thought. Plus it was raining so I was able to hide a little under my umbrella!! This has made me realise, people need to care less about what others think, it's going to be difficult, but by taking yourself out of your comfort zone, it helps you develop and learn and you find, things aren't half as bad as you thought they were going to be.